It's now summer. I'm trying not to blink as it seems to be going by too fast. The kids have been busy and i've had to keep them at the right place at the right time. June 25th was the last day of school. The pool also opened that day.
In ran Alex after school and off to the pool he went. Son #1 is old enough and can swim enough to go alone to the pool. There is 3-4 lifegaurds watching it at all times so I know he's safe. He did sleep at home for a night. Then it started, he was off to a friends house for a few nights. July 1-10 he was at camp and my dad's house. Slept at home another night and then July 11-15 he was in Winnipeg with my dad, slept at his house the night he came back. Yesterday his friend asks if he can sleep over at his grandpa's house. I call Alex and find out what he needs so I can pack an overnight bag and take what he has to wash. Last night he slept at his friends grandpas and won't be home until it's time to go to the Chill game tonight. He will sleep at my house tonight but then from July 18-24 he is at Camp Gitchigomee. In a month I think he has slept at home MAYBE 5 nights. This is a boy who was all excited that he was going to be able to see his friends all summer as i'm still laid off and haven't found another job, which means no daycare for them. At least he is keeping busy.
Zachary had VBS the first week out of school, Camp Gitchigomee the second week, cooking class Monday - Thursday this past week and is now slowed right down. He has snuck in a couple nights at Granddad's camp too. Tomorrow at church we have a bbq and petting zoo to kick of our VBS - which he will attend. A much slower summer for him.
Then there's the Princess, this is her summer to go on a trip with her Nana. Her summer started like Zachary's did, vbs, Gitchimomee (they were same week) and cooking class. However after cooking on Thursday we bought her pretty white sandals to go with her knock out dresses and off the airport she went. She is in Prince Edward Island for the week. She does arrive home until Wednesday at 11:11pm. She is in for one heck of a surprise when she does. That will be another blog entry though.
Timothy has had great fun with his mommy. He's been too young still do do what the big kids have. The one thing he can do is go camping with Granddad because he is house broken. He went for a couple nights and that was long enough, he was ready to see his mommy again. He had so much fun and all the pictures, even the ones he didn't know were being taken he had a big smile on his face. He gets to go back to camp after church tomorrow for a couple nights. He will love the petting zoo. He will be able to go to VBS at our church when he comes home from camp. His big thing this summer is gymnastics. He is enjoying it very much.
We also have season tickets for the chill so this weekend and next we will be enjoying the entertainment. Last night they were in white uniforms and it rained, it took my dad about 1/2 the game to realize what I meant when I said it would be extra good tonight. They won last night sealing a spot in the playoffs for themselves for the 4th straight year.
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Much needed
Sometimes things really seem to suck. Nothing seems to go the way you are hoping it too. I've had alot of times like that in the last little bit. I've been trying to loose weight and this is week 5. Two of those weeks though there was no weight loss and it was definately frustrating. It's hard to work out and try to eat right just to see that it isn't enough. I have tried on numerous occasions to get my weight into check, all failed attempts. I don't want to fail this time. I want it to work out for me.
This week I was hoping to see another loss. I was pleasantly surprised at what I saw. Not only did I loose but I dropped 5 lbs!!!!!! That is as much as I have lost since starting this time. I am only 15lbs away from my first goal and it feels more real now, like I can do it. It is something very achievable, not just words. I try to eat well all week and then on Saturdays it's my free day. I have been finding that even on Saturdays I don't want to eat as much. Just the sheer amount of food that I consume has dropped. I can't eat as much sugary, greasy stuff that I use to. I can still eat it but in moderation, not like before.
This weekend is my sons birthday party and I had to decide what to serve. It's on my cheat day so it doesn't matter what I put out, I can eat it. It has come down to birthday cake, all 4 year olds need birthday cake, a fruit tray, chips and meat, cheese and cracker tray (I think). I'm going out tomorrow to buy all the fruit I need and extra, fruit is a very good thing in my home. The kids and I can't get enough of it. For his party I have some healthy options and then some not so much. I don't have to feel guilty for eating what I want Saturday afternoon.
This is working for me and my kids. I'm getting happy again.
This week I was hoping to see another loss. I was pleasantly surprised at what I saw. Not only did I loose but I dropped 5 lbs!!!!!! That is as much as I have lost since starting this time. I am only 15lbs away from my first goal and it feels more real now, like I can do it. It is something very achievable, not just words. I try to eat well all week and then on Saturdays it's my free day. I have been finding that even on Saturdays I don't want to eat as much. Just the sheer amount of food that I consume has dropped. I can't eat as much sugary, greasy stuff that I use to. I can still eat it but in moderation, not like before.
This weekend is my sons birthday party and I had to decide what to serve. It's on my cheat day so it doesn't matter what I put out, I can eat it. It has come down to birthday cake, all 4 year olds need birthday cake, a fruit tray, chips and meat, cheese and cracker tray (I think). I'm going out tomorrow to buy all the fruit I need and extra, fruit is a very good thing in my home. The kids and I can't get enough of it. For his party I have some healthy options and then some not so much. I don't have to feel guilty for eating what I want Saturday afternoon.
This is working for me and my kids. I'm getting happy again.
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Roller Coaster
That's what I feel like i'm on lately. I just wish I could stay on the top - or at least most of the way up. Bad things this week is that I didn't loose any weight again, hubby fell again and has missed even more work. Good things are my little mans birthday party for his friends is on Friday and he is very excited, also, I have a job interview today.
Now the job interview could go either way. I'm loving being able to stay home with my kids again, it's great. But on the other hand making money is great too. I wish I new what to do about this. I'm going to go to the interview and see what they have to say at least. Find out as much as I can. I'm really hoping I can get a Monday to Friday job again, it works best for my family. That means I will also have to get Timothy into daycare again. As much fun as he had I don't know if I can do that. I do NEED to have his first day of school off, no way can I miss that, it's to important of a day for him. Working and bringing home a paycheque again will be nice though, I wish that I could fill up my daycare and have work, money and be home with my kids.
Now the job interview could go either way. I'm loving being able to stay home with my kids again, it's great. But on the other hand making money is great too. I wish I new what to do about this. I'm going to go to the interview and see what they have to say at least. Find out as much as I can. I'm really hoping I can get a Monday to Friday job again, it works best for my family. That means I will also have to get Timothy into daycare again. As much fun as he had I don't know if I can do that. I do NEED to have his first day of school off, no way can I miss that, it's to important of a day for him. Working and bringing home a paycheque again will be nice though, I wish that I could fill up my daycare and have work, money and be home with my kids.
Monday, April 26, 2010
Better week
Well this week has been better. Saturday I was worn out after spending the afternoon outside celebrating my SIL's 40th birthday, I had no work out energy left. It was a great afternoon and very good food. I was really glad it was my cheat day. My body likes cheat day but has also realized I can't eat as much as I use to be able too - which is a good thing. They had pop and I am happy to say that I left it alone and only had 1 coffee all afternoon. The pop and beer was there and boy did I want one but left it all alone. I feel proud for doing that. I feel like I have more control over what I eat/drink. This month is almost over and I can do it!!!!
Being Monday though it was a weigh in day. After last weeks disappointment I have to admit that I was scared about what the scale would say. I know this week I watched more carefully what I ate. Although missed Saturdays workout I ran 10 minutes - which was 1 1/3 miles or 2.15 km this time. I haven't ran that far in a very long time. Today though my calfs and upper back are really sore. I think I will time it around my block and instead of running in the livingroom run around the block instead. Now that it's so nice outside.
But down to the part people are most curious about. I lost another 2lbs - only 20lbs to go until I reach my first goal. I say first because I have alot more weight than that to loose but if I take it in steps it will be so much easier.
Things I did this week to help - worked out, watched my calories better, had fun and today I took the skin fat off the chicken before marinating it to bbq. Something that will be better for the whole family. My youngest loves watching me work out and on and off will work out with me, that is when he isn't laughing at Bob on the wii or falling asleep. I have positioned my workouts to happen after lunch, prime sleeping time for a little boy. And if sitting on the couch watching makes him fall asleep is that really my fault?
I needed this better week to keep motivated easier. I will not give up. This is something that needs to be done. Summer is coming up and I don't want to be a total blob in my bathing suit because if this Winter/Spring is any indication of what's to come this summer it's going to be a hot one.
Being Monday though it was a weigh in day. After last weeks disappointment I have to admit that I was scared about what the scale would say. I know this week I watched more carefully what I ate. Although missed Saturdays workout I ran 10 minutes - which was 1 1/3 miles or 2.15 km this time. I haven't ran that far in a very long time. Today though my calfs and upper back are really sore. I think I will time it around my block and instead of running in the livingroom run around the block instead. Now that it's so nice outside.
But down to the part people are most curious about. I lost another 2lbs - only 20lbs to go until I reach my first goal. I say first because I have alot more weight than that to loose but if I take it in steps it will be so much easier.
Things I did this week to help - worked out, watched my calories better, had fun and today I took the skin fat off the chicken before marinating it to bbq. Something that will be better for the whole family. My youngest loves watching me work out and on and off will work out with me, that is when he isn't laughing at Bob on the wii or falling asleep. I have positioned my workouts to happen after lunch, prime sleeping time for a little boy. And if sitting on the couch watching makes him fall asleep is that really my fault?
I needed this better week to keep motivated easier. I will not give up. This is something that needs to be done. Summer is coming up and I don't want to be a total blob in my bathing suit because if this Winter/Spring is any indication of what's to come this summer it's going to be a hot one.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Chicken
Today was a chilly but sunny day when I got up. I remember that before I worked I went to a bible study on Wednesday mornings and really felt good - physically and mentally. With everything going on I stopped going and then I couldn't when I worked. I started getting depressed some and really not myself at all. Well today, I got up, remembered it was Wednesday and told Timothy he was going to another play group. Off we go to bible study. The Christian community center here is in a duplex. The ladies go on one side for the bible study and the other side is set up like a daycare for kids. It's wonderful. One of the ladies who was there before was there and Timothy was very happy to see her. Definately made that a trouble free drop off. I was warmly welcomed back as well. One of the ladies was sorry that I lost my job but glad I was back.
What does this all have to do with chicken though you are likely wondering. No I didn't get any while there and I didn't play it either. My husband left for work and we passed ways on our way back. I get into the house and look on the oven and there are these 4 beautiful chicken breasts on the oven. Which means that's what's for supper tonight - great man he is, he won't be home but pulled out meat anyways. These are so big though I can make 2 for the 5 of us. The three little kids can eat one and my oldest and I can share the other one. These breasts are the size of my hand and a little bigger. The thickest part is over an inch thick. I ate chicken 2 nights ago with one breast, made 2 chicken tacos and the kids had hamburger meat in theirs and one breast was too much for the tacos I made. I ate the difference mind you. (That meal was only 550 calories for dinner - it was a good day). I love chicken but can already hear the groans from my oldest child - he's my red meat boy, something we don't eat often in our home.
What does this all have to do with chicken though you are likely wondering. No I didn't get any while there and I didn't play it either. My husband left for work and we passed ways on our way back. I get into the house and look on the oven and there are these 4 beautiful chicken breasts on the oven. Which means that's what's for supper tonight - great man he is, he won't be home but pulled out meat anyways. These are so big though I can make 2 for the 5 of us. The three little kids can eat one and my oldest and I can share the other one. These breasts are the size of my hand and a little bigger. The thickest part is over an inch thick. I ate chicken 2 nights ago with one breast, made 2 chicken tacos and the kids had hamburger meat in theirs and one breast was too much for the tacos I made. I ate the difference mind you. (That meal was only 550 calories for dinner - it was a good day). I love chicken but can already hear the groans from my oldest child - he's my red meat boy, something we don't eat often in our home.
Monday, April 19, 2010
Bitch Week
That is what it is here. Some of my friends will understand while others will wonder. It's Monday and that means weigh in day. Who the heck plateaus in week 2. I didn't go on the cruise. I did my work outs. I tried. I definately didn't do it well enough though. I'm still 22lbs away from my goal. How can that be? The days before bitch week come are not good days for me. I like to eat. All the work I did went down the drain with that Tomato Soup cake and those extra chicken nuggets. I new as I ate them that I shouldn't and it would throw my calorie intake into overdrive. I'm not feeling good that this has happened. I'm going to be more careful this week on calorie intake, that's for sure. This will definately be the hardest to not have chocolate and pepsi going.
My other big goal for this week is to eat breakfast within 30 minutes of getting up in the morning. I'm not a breakfast person, coffee is good enough - at least it was. Now i'm going to make an effort to eat something decent. Facebook and emails will have to wait until the food is in. I hope my virtual friends don't mind but it's something I have to do. As to my sister, who I know reads these, i'm 2 hours ahead of you so it's not like you will notice a difference. I can still check for sister messages and respond before you are even out of bed.
Today I received 2 coupons one was a b1g1 free CHOCOLATE bar. The other was just for a free CHOCOLATE bar. Is the world telling me something. I'm trying to be a better person - that chocolate will have to wait another 11 days and then it will depend on if I can make room for it. I mean 16 junior mints is 170 calories so I have to learn self control really fast. I haven't even looked at a chocolate bar - i'm sort of scared too.
So I know what I did wrong and I know what I have to improve and have set a new goal for this week. I will be successful, i'll just have to work a little harder.
My other big goal for this week is to eat breakfast within 30 minutes of getting up in the morning. I'm not a breakfast person, coffee is good enough - at least it was. Now i'm going to make an effort to eat something decent. Facebook and emails will have to wait until the food is in. I hope my virtual friends don't mind but it's something I have to do. As to my sister, who I know reads these, i'm 2 hours ahead of you so it's not like you will notice a difference. I can still check for sister messages and respond before you are even out of bed.
Today I received 2 coupons one was a b1g1 free CHOCOLATE bar. The other was just for a free CHOCOLATE bar. Is the world telling me something. I'm trying to be a better person - that chocolate will have to wait another 11 days and then it will depend on if I can make room for it. I mean 16 junior mints is 170 calories so I have to learn self control really fast. I haven't even looked at a chocolate bar - i'm sort of scared too.
So I know what I did wrong and I know what I have to improve and have set a new goal for this week. I will be successful, i'll just have to work a little harder.
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Sabotage
I thought I was doing something good for myself and my children. Loosing alot of the excess weight so I can run and have fun again with them and be more active myself is a win/win situation. The kids get an active mom back and I get a healthier life. Now don't get me wrong, I still do lots with the kids, I can still go on hikes and stuff with them but when it comes to races, tag, soccer, anything that takes alot of running I just can't do it. I don't have the energy to. I'm going to change that though.
Why does it feel that so many people who should be happy and encouraging me is trying to sabotage me though. I vowed not to have chocolate and my dad new that. Yet he has to tease me with chocolate and how good it is and all the rest. For those that know me, chocolate is a huge downfall for me and something that I consume way too much. I just wanted to go the rest of April without having any. My mom brought me back a "big box size" of junior mints - one of my favourite junk food of all times. To her defense she didn't know I wasn't eating chocolate the rest of the month - this started after she went away. The box of junior mints is sitting in the office staring at me every time I come in here. Last night at her house though she tossed me a mini chocolate bar (one of the little halloween size ones) and before I new it I had it open and eaten. Now that goal is gone - I didn't do it because of one little almonds bar - the chocolate covered coconut was so tasty. I will not eat any more before the end of the month though. The junior mint box will remain untouched.
The biggest person trying to sabotage me though is my husband. I don't think he is capable of supporting me in this. All he ever wants to eat is processed crap and stuff smothered in sauces and such. Now don't get me wrong, I do love my processed crap too but in moderation. He wanted pogos and fries today for lunch and a huge rack of ribs for supper - smothered in bbq sauce. I turned down the lunch and he then cooked Kraft Dinner and gave me a whole cereal bowl full smothered in ketchup. I didn't eat much of it as it tasted way to salty and heck that was 3-4 portions in the bowl. Definately too much for anyone. Why can't he just give normal servings and then veggies. We have lots of carrots and celery sticks that would have been much better than a pile of pasta with fake cheese. Today isn't the only time, this is all the time. I have requested that he don't use so much salad dressing for me OR the kids. Ceasar salad is good and all but when you have so much cheese and salad dressing all you see is white when you look at the salad it's gross. Time to learn portion control. To help for me i've used a smaller plate - the same size kids use. He still uses a big plate and has it FULL of food. I'm not saying he shouldn't eat what he wants and has to cut way back like I have - but at least be supportive and eat better. If he cooks it would be great if he could make sure that the meal stays in a decent calorie range. I can't eat 2000 calories for supper when I only have 1800 for the WHOLE day. He doesn't understand this. I showed him the example between ceasar salad and chips. I made myself a salad and put it on the plate on one side, on the other side I put the number of chips that equaled the calories. There was less than 1/2 the chips, very little food. He thought it was great and had a salad instead and then ate 1/2 a big bag of chips as well. It's so frustrating that he doesn't care. I guess this is a huge hurdle in the way of reaching my goals and I'll have to find a way to deal with it.
Why does it feel that so many people who should be happy and encouraging me is trying to sabotage me though. I vowed not to have chocolate and my dad new that. Yet he has to tease me with chocolate and how good it is and all the rest. For those that know me, chocolate is a huge downfall for me and something that I consume way too much. I just wanted to go the rest of April without having any. My mom brought me back a "big box size" of junior mints - one of my favourite junk food of all times. To her defense she didn't know I wasn't eating chocolate the rest of the month - this started after she went away. The box of junior mints is sitting in the office staring at me every time I come in here. Last night at her house though she tossed me a mini chocolate bar (one of the little halloween size ones) and before I new it I had it open and eaten. Now that goal is gone - I didn't do it because of one little almonds bar - the chocolate covered coconut was so tasty. I will not eat any more before the end of the month though. The junior mint box will remain untouched.
The biggest person trying to sabotage me though is my husband. I don't think he is capable of supporting me in this. All he ever wants to eat is processed crap and stuff smothered in sauces and such. Now don't get me wrong, I do love my processed crap too but in moderation. He wanted pogos and fries today for lunch and a huge rack of ribs for supper - smothered in bbq sauce. I turned down the lunch and he then cooked Kraft Dinner and gave me a whole cereal bowl full smothered in ketchup. I didn't eat much of it as it tasted way to salty and heck that was 3-4 portions in the bowl. Definately too much for anyone. Why can't he just give normal servings and then veggies. We have lots of carrots and celery sticks that would have been much better than a pile of pasta with fake cheese. Today isn't the only time, this is all the time. I have requested that he don't use so much salad dressing for me OR the kids. Ceasar salad is good and all but when you have so much cheese and salad dressing all you see is white when you look at the salad it's gross. Time to learn portion control. To help for me i've used a smaller plate - the same size kids use. He still uses a big plate and has it FULL of food. I'm not saying he shouldn't eat what he wants and has to cut way back like I have - but at least be supportive and eat better. If he cooks it would be great if he could make sure that the meal stays in a decent calorie range. I can't eat 2000 calories for supper when I only have 1800 for the WHOLE day. He doesn't understand this. I showed him the example between ceasar salad and chips. I made myself a salad and put it on the plate on one side, on the other side I put the number of chips that equaled the calories. There was less than 1/2 the chips, very little food. He thought it was great and had a salad instead and then ate 1/2 a big bag of chips as well. It's so frustrating that he doesn't care. I guess this is a huge hurdle in the way of reaching my goals and I'll have to find a way to deal with it.
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