Here I go

Starting Monday I am employed full time. Monday to Friday with the occasional Saturday thrown in. I have some people who are giving up parts of their days to watch my kids. I still have spots that need to be filled though. I really don't want to hand my whole paycheque over to a babysitter because that would be totally pointless. Why can this be the month my sister doesn't work and live with us? She's doing very well for herself though and i'm proud of her.

Nothing new on hubby except he has one of his specialist appts in a couple weeks. Mabye we can finally get an answer, really not holding my breathe on that one but we can all hope. I often wonder if he will ever get better. I'm good at convincing myself he won't and then it will be a big shock when he does. If he can stop going numb and can control his pain he can go back to work. I want to say I can then be at home with my son where I belong but I might like working in the outside world and maybe that is where I will belong. I love being a SAHM but maybe it's a good time for me to move on. I do wish that hubby could be a SAHD until he could go back to work but that would really be dreaming. I love him dearly and he can be a good dad but patience is definately not a strong suit for him. Someone needs to convince my dad that he should be retired so he can babysit his grandchildren. At least I get him on his days off - for gas money and tic tacs. The tic tacs of course are for my baby -- he has already learnt that when granddad shows up his pocket rattles and out comes tic tacs. My son will have the most fresh breath ever.