Soccer

When watching kids play soccer never blink, especially if it's your child playing. I was positive I was watching Zachary play all year and a bit last week but really today the boy seems to have improved so much. I am very proud of him. Somethings he does I don't even see older kids doing. He isn't scared to go after a kid twice his size and try to get the ball. He is a year too young to make the development team but has been given the ok to go and try out. I think this is really exciting but realistically don't expect him to make it. It would be a huge surprise if he did, a pleasant surprise mind you.

Alex on the other hand is good too. Today there was only one time he wasn't in position during the game and he scored back to back goals within a couple minutes of each other. I was very proud of him. He will also show up to tryouts for the developmental team. All the boys on the team need to go to try outs still or they risk loosing their spot if the coaches see a player they think will be better. Some how both my boys will be at both try outs, one will likely (hopefully) be thrilled and the other will be back to try again next time.

My nerves go back and forth whether Alex is going to make the team. I think i'm more nervous than he is. He has been trying really hard and even in the last month has improved tons more. The test is March Break to see if he's done enough to make it. I'm a true soccer mom.

Scared

To be totally honest todays cat scan results have really scared me. Even though it could turn out to be ok the fact that Brad has 2 discrepancies on his brain is really scary. I don't know the last time I was this scared and worried and nervous all at once. Even being 20 and in labour with my first son, knowing the pain that I would go through didn't scare me this much. I wasn't scared then, a little worried thinking about how a baby was going to get out of me but heck I was 20. Now we wait for yet another MRI, so they can check his brain one layer at a time and see just how big these discrepancies are and what they are affecting.

Oh yeah, and to top of today's doctors visit Keona has strep throat. She was feeling icky at school yesterday and today she was still ick. almost have of her class was out of school or under the weather. Today the doctor checked her and sure enough she is sick too. First time I remember her being on antibiotics. She loves them though so it will be easy getting her to take them.

But with every scary moment and good one will come. Now it's time to ride this roller coaster of emotions back up again. I've been down for too long. Time for Brad to get better so we can go on hikes, walk all day with the kids and be a whole family again doing things we love to do. It's hard being the only parent who can take the kids anywhere, especially when they all have to be in a different place at the same time. I know things will get better and I believe they will, I will not be given more than I can handle and, yes, we will get through this, that doesn't mean I can't have bad days because I know I will, but it does mean I will make the best I can out of them and my kids will realize just how well we can pull together as a family when the going gets tough.

Wow

I buy wine at the same liquor store every time. I go in, pick what we want, pay and leave. No questions asked. Well today I get to the counter and the guy asks me for ID. I give him this odd look while it registers what he said. I've seen him in the store before so I know he isn't new. It totally caught me off guard, seeing as how I haven't been asked for ID in ages. So it turns out I am getting younger every day. Maybe that's what the looks when I take my devils, er children, out in public. Maybe they can't believe they are actually all mine because i'm so young. Whatever the reason, I definately don't feel my age.

And the Cool Mommy Award goes to.........

Why me of course!!!!! I am the cool mommy who rented the SoccerPlex for my kids for their pd day. Yup, right now it's just for my kids, but I did tell them they could each invite a couple friends. It will give Alex great practice and they can all have tons of fun without wrecking havoc on my house. My house will be safe, at least for that afternoon.

I also know i'm cool because Zachary told me so last week. He and his friends were talking at school and sports teams came up and how cool the players are. Zachary told them that his one of the big players talks to his mommy often. Well that alone shot me into cool-dom. Because a member of the Chill talks to me i'm cool. They don't seem to think that the fact the Chill players coached some of them for soccer in the Spring meant as much as their heroes talking to their parents often. A few years ago all it took was me making cupcakes for all the holidays for school, now they are all health nuts there it's crazy.


Why couldn't being cool be this easy when I was in school? I love my kids!!!!

The Saga Continues........

It's now been 15 weeks since the old man got hurt. Things are getting worse and not better. We have lots of my family and our friends helping out. The biggest help arrives on the 15th though when my big sister arrives to save what's left of my sanity. I feel like I have 5 kids plus my daycare kids and i'm doing it all on my own. It's really hard and I give all the single moms out there a huge applause for having to do it all the time. I know eventually my time will come to an end and I will have my regular help.

I have found out that sometimes help comes where you least expect it. We have one friend that has made things alot easier for us. He's been there to listen to what's going on. He's been there to give me hope things will get better. He's watched my big boys while I had to go the the ER so they wouldn't miss soccer. He's there to give us rides when needed. My kids all look up to him, from the first day they met him in the Spring. He coaches all my kids soccer. He's #6 for our Thunder Bay Chill soccer team and he cares about his fans and their families. Thanks Wilson!!!!